my review days was covered with scribbled medical terms and numbers on post-its.
Monday, July 18, 2011
future
is a road made to look like a fork
reaching out in all directions with
uncertainties that may cripple a step or two
uncertainties that may cripple a step or two
the direction that this road will go is where
you'll learn and keep precious words to ponder
make each breath that will make you hold
where you will gaze up to the highest peak
wondering how far it would go
wondering how far it would go
and after much thinking and struggling
you will make a huge step after all
insomnia note #1
randomtumble
a few people know i just took my board exam which just concluded a few hours ago. i walked out not really remembering what i just did inside the exam room. but the thing is, i can truly remember the questions i can’t answer. my friend just caught me staring at nowhere. hah. what just hapened.
i went home without thinking about anything trying to suppress whatever pops out in my head. i lay in my bed, grabbed a chocolate bar, devoured it and hoping it does its placebo trick. during the process, i hugged my biggest pillow which i don’t really do much because i prefer it to be on my head. then all them wicked thoughts started pouring.
so i stood up to find myself some distractions. alas, the internet. and i saw him. looked through his page and read what i didn’t want to know. thus, the ever lengthy weird post awhile ago that doesn’t make sense. instead of writing all my rants, i wrote to him instead. :D
now i’m stuck browsing through tumblr hoping something could lighten me up. while doing so, i’m stuffing myself with some cookies even if i know it doesn’t really have effect on whatever i want to feel.
the law of attraction makes me wonder now with a huge smile on my face…
what you think about, you bring about!
here goes my list of encouraging words that i want to keep telling myself over and over again till my fateful day. it might be senseless to some but this is just me applying the law of attraction.
- i can do things i never thought i could do and that is what i’m holding on to
- i have very significant people supporting me in every way that i could deeply gratify every waking day. they will keep me together.
- the sky may hide me puzzles but i know it will also give me answers
- i can do what i think i could do because i strive to do so
- i will attract what is positive because i will not mope for small senseless things rather focus on what makes more sense
- i may have doubts but i can work through it because i know i can gain greater confidence in myself that could erase these doubts
- i’m strong! i have the ability! i have the courage! i have my inspirations! i have the power to get hold of what i dream!
one of the best days of my life is today
because there are…
real simple people
people who makes you stronger than you thought
memorable people
their words forever etched in your journey
happy people
who’s able to trace a wide smile across your face
inspiring people
made you believe and have faith
and strong people
that shared their strength to you
lessons learned
this past few months has been a very long roller coaster ride. i feel like i’ve gone through anywhere. from being sick, sad and depressed, to being lost and lonely, to being an empty and happy amused soul, to a manic depressive, then i’d be paranoid and confused, then be infatuated and inspired again, and so on. little things could really a go along way. i’ve learned a lot. i’ve actually made up a list of what I learned so far as i’m getting to the peak of this coaster ride. here goes:
1. DO NOT OVER ANALYZE.
2. ALWAYS stick with the open-ended question
3. don’t be an idiot
4, draw it the RIGHT way
5. DO BETTER!
6. be warned of the word “NOT”
7. write your list
8. finish the book
9. read further
10. safety is always the best option!
11. don’t consider client incompetent unless said so.
12. re-read!
13. there is, for some odd reason, that your first answer will be the right one.
14. rethink!
15. be optimistic!
16. find your inspiration…. <3
17. make your mistakes as a stepping stone to success
18. deal with your problems then laugh about it after
19. offer your sacrifice to God! :)
20. have faith in yourself
21. DO your BEST!
22. aim higher than high!
23. don’t lose yourself in the way
24. and then your inspiration.. <3 (this part just doesn’t make sense)
hahaha! so far, this is what i was able to write. there’s still a lot more to add to this list for sure.
soggy soup
i got myself a soggy soup. it’s made of fundamentals and anything medical-surgical. it was mixed with a huge dollop of psychiatry and what’s therapeutic and spiced up with anything that concerns with care and health. it’s sprinkled with evidenced based research, theories and anything that’s considered legal. it’s then carefully simmered in flames powered by patience, determination, perseverance and prayers.
i got myself a soggy soup.
my brain.
goo
you tell me tales i didn’t want to hear
sprawled across your strokes
are distinct blots i didn’t want to feel
but anything i try to do
you sill remind of that hue
where you colored a part of grey
and made grey part of blue
now my senses are mixed up
in this endless patterns
and continuous trance
soon enough, soon enough
i’d be thinking
again
of
you
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